I wrote this about a year back being in really hard times. I know my english isnt all that but I thought I should post it. Wrote many in German, this being the only one in English. Feedack (good or bad) is welcome....

Confused

Lately I’ve been going through many different phases
But it seems to turn out bad no matter what the case is
Trying to forget some and meet other new faces
Knowing that a six feet deep grave my final place is

Already thinking about death, still 19 years old though
Now tell me how many people like that you met or know
Even if everything was good just a month ago
From now on - day to day I see the pain grow

The heart is getting darker and the joy is on the low
Inside of me hate to the world is the only thing to glow
I guess the best thing to get over is ignore it and let it go
GOD I need your help that’s all Im asking for

Confused and Depressed I’m watching the circle around
Instead of growing it gets deeper beneath the ground
It’s disgusting I can’t describe for you the death sound
The parts of me dying are too many to count

The thin line between love and hate has been crossed
Hatred towards me raises from the people across
They say life is a beautiful woman but I wish to divorce
The pain reminds me of Jesus carrying the cross

Why are all the good and beautiful things passing me by
Can’t catch or face them no matter how hard I try
All the set goals and aims are just too high
Praying to GOD to make it to the sky the day I die