This is kinda freaky, and I was gonna report this earlier today, but...

Okay, I have a screwed up sleep schedule since, well, I don't *need* to be up at any certain hour right now. And besides the insomnia + apnea... Plus the fact that I'm a nightowl more than a morning owl... That's all! lol

Anyway - this means that in the AM I often end up in a half-awake, half-dream state where I believe that lucid dreams often overrule "reality".

This morning (yesterday), in that state, I "received an email from Plaw", and it said basically: "Thank you for all the kind words".

I actually SAW the email in my head, with all the headers and everything - I was even trying to see the IP address of Heaven, but...

Of course, that freaked me out enough to wake me up! But at the same time, I really believe that such a state is conducive to such messages from *other places* - and it made me happy that (I believe) Plaw actually took that moment to thank us....

Call me a quack all you want, but I saw/sensed what I saw...

As much as Plaw loved this site I don't think he will have any problem 'finding it' again.

If it walks like a duck and talks like a duck..... j/k. :p

Did you actually ever have an email from like that? That sounds freaky but comforting. It would be just like him to send messages to make us feel better. Thinking of others even in the end.

That's a bit freaky JG. Nice to hear Plaw is still reading.

I had a similar experience a few years ago after my grandfather died. After a death, Catholic Filipinos have daily prayers for 40 days to pray for the soul of the recently deceased. The prayers are for the safe passage from purgatory into heaven. Right around the 40th day after my grandfather's death, he came to me in a dream saying that I had to let him go - that he can't go to heaven otherwise.

Needless to say, I woke up in a start. It freaked me out because (i) I've never dreamt about my grandfather before and (ii) the coincidence of time and words really was so surreal. I prayed for him that night and I'm sure my prayers were answered. To this day, I've never forgotten that dream.

Well Paul pulled off the hat trick!

This morning when I turned on my cell phone, there was a 'ONE NEW VOICEMAIL' message. So I dialed my voicemail to retrieve the message. I listened to it and when it was over there was another message which said "YOU HAVE ONE SAVED MESSAGE." And I was like "What the fock" because I NEVER save my voicemail messages and always delete them. So I retrieve this supposed saved message and lo and behold it starts out " Hey, it's me, Paul, how are you doing...."



My heart almost dropped out of me! I remember the message well from when I first got it from Paul, and I know that I deleted it because I always delete my messages. Besides, yesterday I got a voice message from someone else and when I listened to it and it was finished, I did not have any other messages, new or saved!

And today this old message that I know I deleted pops up?

It was really great to hear his voice again , but at the same time it was very sad .


Don Cardi

Should I be expecting a visit soon then? It seems he's visited everyone else.

Well, I for one, always have believed the possibility of loved deceased ones being able to see us. Don't we all know, that if he could, PLaw would be posting today.

I find myself thinking about him a lot and have a feeling it'll take a while to get use to the idea that he will never be posting again.


TIS

No, not everyone. It seems he isn't visiting abroad.

amazing how a long period of absence can make time fly and things change so quickly...

i've never met or talked with plawrence personally, but he seemed to be a very nice man... may he rest in peace...

No, not everyone. It seems he isn't visiting abroad. [/b][/quote]He visited JG......oh sorry there's no space in between the a and the b

I went to check out the Beta version of the "new" site, and there was something called my UBB friends. I clicked on it and it listed plaw!! I don't remember ever having any UBB friends, or adding any, and it was so odd to see his name there.

Me too...
Sometimes I just happen to think this is just a period, and that he will post tomorrow or so.

But then I have to make myself realize Plaw will never post again.

Me too...
Sometimes I just happen to think this is just a period, and that he will post tomorrow or so.

But then I have to make myself realize Plaw will never post again. [/b][/quote]It's only been less then a week, but it feels like an eternity in a way. I can post on this board and have fun and joke around one minute, then I look up and see the "Remembering Plawrence" link at the top of the page and I burst into tears. Sometimes I feel guilty when I'm laughing at something, like why should I laugh, Paul can't, I'm sure his son can't. But I'm sure he doesn't want me feeling this way. I just miss him every day.

Oh, Bethie, don't feel like that...I know Plaw wouldn't want you to.

We should always cherish the memory of him, but you shouldn't make yourself feel guilty about anything.

He'd much rather you smile, laugh, and enjoy the place that he loved so much.

How did you do that?

Don't get spooked. That UBB Friend List came from your PM Buddy List (from these boards).

DON'T BEAT YOURSELF UP OVER LAUGHING NOW! You know how much you're hurting inside. There's absolutely nothing wrong in trying to find a way to laugh.

I dunno if Paul is laughing now but I bet he's smiling! He's not in pain anymore and he saw his parents again.

Steven will laugh again some day soon. Poor kid.

Well, my fiancé died four years ago. I was in complete shock for months although it wasn't unexpected, because he was terminally ill of colon cancer and we all knew he couldn't live long. Yet, when he died, when I realized those green eyes were not to look at me any longer, that smile was not to be turned on again, that voice was not to greet me ( "ciao micionaaaa!!!!!!"), never again, well....it was agony. I remember I spent many many nights with tears in my eyes, asking God "why?" and praying "please, let him contact me somehow". That went on for about one year. Then, one day, I felt more comfortable. Not because mourning was over. But because I stopped asking why. From that moment on I began feeling him close to me again. And he never left me since. I'm looking at his pic on my office desk just now, while writing this, and we share a smile. I know he's by my side. I'm not angry anymore. I'm grateful because I had such a wonderful person in my life. This is just another way to have him in my life. Feeling him inside my heart. Of course sometimes I crave for his touch. But it's just a moment.
And of course I'm sure we'll meet again someday.

Lavinia, So Sorry for your loss. My mother died 29 years ago and I know what you mean asking why. Why did she have to die when I was just a young teenager just when I needed her the most. Then I realized she is no longer suffering from all the pain and she was with God cooking for him in the big kitchen in the sky. What I wouldn't do to eat her cabbage rolls I miss her so much but I dream about her and that is comforting.

Mig, I'm sure your Mom watches over you from Heaven and comes and visits you in your dreams! Unfortunately I rarely dream of Massimo, but one time I dreamt of him -- he was at a window (sort of) and had the most enchanting smile imaginable, a smile coming from Heaven indeed. I still have chills down my spine just at the thought of it....

Our beloved ones never really leave us. That's for sure. We just must get used to feel them. It takes time, but it's sooooo comforting!

Beth,
I know exactly how you feel, but you MUST NOT. Paul would feel horrible knowing your were grieving this way (although it would've massaged his massive ego to a certain extent ). Today I went to the library and took out two books by an author he introduced me to. I would give anything to be able to discuss those books with him, but it isn't meant to be. This is what the fates had in store for him. We can only be grateful that he touched our lives for the time that we had him.

Beth,

I know how you feel. I felt so guilty after he passed that I was not able to visit him in the hospital. I don't think he would want us to feel guilty. I will cherish the time I did get to spend with him. When I see something that reminds me of Neal I will smile.

I just wanted to give my sympathy to Plawrence's family and also his friends here at the Gangster board. I popped in the other day and was shocked to see this post on the main page. I hope he is in a better place now. Regards ~ Ang

RIP Plaw.

I never really got along with him, but hell I never get along with anyone RIP Plaw.

I haven't been on here in awhile and I am so saddened to learn that Plaw has passed away. Can anyone please tell me what happened?

Meggie...plawrence had been ill for quite some time. It was mentioned earlier in this thread that he was diagnosed with terminal cancer back in March 2005.

Apple

I'm shocked and deeply saddened from the news of Plawrence's passing. I was not aware of his illness. He brought wit and charm to the board and I enjoyed reading many of his postings. Though I haven't visited the board as much as I did in the past I was stunned to read of his passing.

When Plawrence was brought into this world he cried and his family rejoiced. Now he is rejoicing and we are crying.




RIP Plawrence

I am utterly shocked!
RIP Plaw.
You will be sadly missed.

I, too, wasn't aware he was even sick. We certainly didn't see eye-to-eye on most things, but I always respected him. He was one of the few more "civil" arguers among us, and I believe his concern and care over his fellow man were truly sincere. Wow. You just never know.