Torrent/emule blah blah illegal download stuff, an extremely crappy quality version is floating around. This was never released in VHS/DVD. It was last shown in 2006 in Bradford film festival. It is almost impossible to find it. I don't know why I watched it, I am still extremely disturbed and in some surreal world. I never felt like this before, maybe I should have watched it with some goofy friends and they would have made fun of all the scenes and I wouldn't have got affected. I wanted to take a break and came to school in the night, but I can't work. I am planning to go to cinema in an hour and watch "Lucky You" featuring Robert Duvall. I need a break seriously. Sorry for the rant, but I needed to vent.